Attempted Save

 Only you could hurt me this way.

They tried to warn me, but nothing could.

Wouldn't want it any other way.

Struggling to go and struggling to stay.

Excellence

 So hungry to make uh da muney honey.

Wear a seatbelt for safety,

Wear a rosary for safety,

Wear a suit for moolah.

The fall leaves crackle underfoot.

Rain dance. We should do a rain dance.

And the money falls from the sky.

The first lottery-won billionaire in Southern California.

She has acquired a business partner and portfolio.

She can't help it if you find her smarter than attractive.

She gets bored and solves math problems.

Looks for puzzles.

Makes her young son's life into a puzzle just so that she can usefully solve it.

Right now I'm working in sales.

I mean like cold calls.

He absolutely refuses to sing.

I do not love you Mommy.

Can't we just play it by ear.

Let me know if you still feel the same way next week.

Will you still hate me when all your classmates want to fuck me?

Just kidding.

I have a real problem with male authority.

Since when did once one of them earn that multi-revenue.

I'll tell you when

Never.

They are lost to the money and moolah.

They can't even admit that they love their mothers.

They love their fathers because their fathers have no expectations whatsoever.

You'll learn not to value an easy love.

You'll learn to be withholding in order to squeeze out love from others, but nary dripping a drop for another living soul.

You'll learn or perish.

You build walls to keep me out but they only hem you in.

You punish the bad guys.

You punish the bad guys.

Your punishment is cruel.

Your punishment is draconian.

Your punishment is illegal.

You are a bad guy.

Once bad always bad.

How are we to ever repent?

From whence is learned the empathy required.

Empathy is required to empire build.

I would love to work with your assets.

You may not touch my assets unless you can prove to me that you will be responsible with them.

I don't want you to hurt my assets.

Assets depreciate.

You won't appreciate that my assets depreciate.

Starlight Sibilance

 

One Coward's Posterity

Dear --------,

First of all, thank you for the opportunity. I have enjoyed learning from you and being given the space and respect to manage my own work.

Second, I am leaving because I found a really great position with commensurate compensation and many more diverse learning opportunities for me.

However, I never would have started looking for a new position had I not been terrorized by --------'s behavior—(1) lying, (2) yelling, (3) silent treatment, (4) rude comments/making fun of my language and emails, (5) making harsh and inappropriate comments about employees' bodies and sexuality.

These behaviors are not only unprofessional, they are cruel. As I am getting ready to leave I have become increasingly worried about the workplace my fellow employees are having to endure. I would ask that you take a look at the environment that's been created and give it the same attention that you have given to the core of the business's operations. With that investment, I trust that the issues I have raised will no longer be plaguing your employees work life any longer.

Sincerely,

A coward who probably will not being sending this letter despite the consequences of not doing so.

Consider this a Predicate.

I think I am still in love with him, but I try not to think about it.

free love

Sex can be desublimated when we prioritize the quantity of consumption the emphasis shifts away from the quality of the experience. This is how sex becomes repressive. Rather than a precious experience, mass consumption demands that it become a matter of speed and quantity.

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free

love that is given with liberty, without boundaries, restrictions, exempt from external authority, independent, given readily

set free

vs.

without value

if something is given readily does it still have value? can value be earned without cost?

vs.

casual

inappropriately casual or presumptuous

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love

profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend

sexual passion or desire

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free love

attachment without value

profound feelings of the most value

Book List

The Door - Szabo'
Elena Ferrante
H is for Hawk
The Invention of Nature - Wulf
Near and Distant Nature - Haslam
Our Kids - Putnam
North Korea Confidential - Tudor and Pearson
Kissinger - Ferguson
The Sellout - Beatty
Book of Numbers - Cohen
The Sympathizer - Nguyen
The Fisherman - Obioma
A Little Life - Yanagihara
Chernobyl - Alexievich
Zingy Boys
The Argonauts - Nelson
Zero K - Delillo
The Last Interview - Baldwin

Stuff List

Helen Oyeyemi
"Sugar frost nuts ask"
Paul Bowles
Abrahams
Yellow-tinted shooting glasses
Fishlike Blimps
The perimeter left by your absence is long to walk in one day.

Dog Leg

Glorious Art

Oh literature. Oh the glorious art. How it preys upon the marrow.

-D. H. Lawrence

Haiku #517: Amends Were Made to Have with Yourself

You took ev'rything/And replaced it with nothing./What happens next?